So here I go...

I finally have a blog! Can you even believe it?! I must admit that my arm has been twisted in to doing this...and I'm sure you know who you are! It was mentioned to my husband, Joshua, who you will here much more about later, on Saturday, and he has not let the idea go. He believes that this will be a wonderful opportunity for me to talk, vent, release any emotions that I may need to, all the while trying to keep some sanity. Good luck, huh?!

So since this was mentioned Saturday, I have thought a lot about what I would talk about. What I would have to say...Of course, the other thought running through my mind is, who would want to read what I have to say?? Trust me, my feeling will not be hurt if you become bored out of your mind and never visit my blog again! I understand. If you can't tell by now, I'm a bit of a rambler! I say a lot of nothing sometimes. At least I can admit that...some can't!

Ok...so I thought I would start from the beginning. This blog is going to be dedicated to my relationship with my best friend and husband, Joshua, and what we have been going through in the 3 1/2 short years that we have been married. To learn just a little more about us, I think I need to go further back than 3 years...more to when we first "learned" of each other. Wondering why I said "learned"?? For those of you who don't know, Josh and I met through a singles site! Woohoo....the secret is out! Some of you knew that already, but some of you were told that we met "through friends". Honestly, that's not a lie! I consider the site that we met through to be a mutual "friend"! How's that?! So yes, though it may sound awefully desperate, we did meet that way, and I wouldn't change it for anything. The days after the first email was sent were some of the greatest days of my life. You're probably wondering why I feel that way, but it was the whole waiting game...am I going to have an email? When is he going to sign online?? I could go on and on, but some days I miss those feelings so much! I loved getting home from work, checking my email and having a letter from "postmancol"! It was the highlight of my day (ok...how sad does that sound?).

I'm going to tell you something that probably sounds crazy, but it is totally 100% the honest truth...I fell in love with that man long before we ever officially met! I never even saw a picture of him...he did see the one I had posted on the singles site, but I never saw the man, yet I was head over heels! I had that fluttering feeling in my stomach all the time...I couldn't eat, I never slept b/c once I finally gave him my phone number, we would talk on the phone until 3 or 4 in the morning. I would then get up at 6, go to work and do the same thing all over again! Tell me that wasn't new, fresh, adrenaline rushing love! I'm sure the majority of you know exactly what I'm talking about, and if so, I know you understand it when I said that I miss that feeling sometimes. I guess it's just that new love feeling.

So this started back in 2002. That is when the first email was sent, we started talking, and it all fell into place from there...or did it?!

Ok...so I know I'm rambling, and I could go on for hours upon hours, but I'm going to stop. If I haven't completely bored you, and you want to know more, give me a positive comment. Otherwise, please just don't leave a comment at all. I don't think I could take anything negative ;o)